It seems like you're already aware of what's good for you and what isn't. Definitely run from it! You deserve much better! You certainly do, my friend! I also agree with ALL the other wise and wonderful posters about you seeing a Therapist. I feel like that may help you explore the causes and the reasons why you're hanging out with this kind of men if it's frequent for you. Hopefully knowing yourself better will give you some relieve! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Disney2019, your Family, your Friends, your Guy and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!