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My boyfriend has since changed completely after the revelation. He completely admitted to everything, never held anything I wanted to know back. He went to counseling, he's bought a ring, he wants children-- he tells me that a life with me is all he wants and I believe him. He's even got a career in HVAC now. I feel like everything happens for a reason-- but why at the expense of others? He's grown a great deal and I'm very proud but now I feel like I'm the one holding us back.
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He has to stop drinking alcohol and get sober once and for all. He is a binge alcoholic and when he drinks he makes bad decisions.
I lived what you have shared and went through so many "I love you and I will never hurt you again" only to once again get hurt.
My husband cheated on me too, I was totally devastated by it. I had a young beautiful litte girl what he did hurt us both. Also, he told you a lot when he was worried about that skin tag, it means he did not have protected sex which means he also put YOUR health at risk too.
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Lo-and-behold, he was drunk when he got home. I was SO angry, I chose not to argue and just go to bed but I had this sinking, burning feeling in my chest. I couldn't breathe-- I don't know what it was.
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I experienced this too.
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Now I'm plagued by constant images, thoughts, nightmares, suicidal thoughts... I'm so scared of myself. I just want to be happy.
It's so unfair to see him just sit there, content and me, a complete broken version of myself. I'm so angry and hurt, I don't even recognize who I am anymore.
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Yes, I have experienced this as well. I was devasted and what changed dramatically was my ability to trust.