I can recall certain things in my childhood, but certainly not a day-by-day, minute-by minute account of things. But I have always had a memory of an event when I was about 6. I can remember every minute, every detail except for a bit in the middle. (The memory covers about 1 hour). The memory was triggered and became more insistent- up to the point that I broached it with my t in the hopes that by talking about it aloud it would go away. I believed up til then that it was innocent. Then as my t and I began talking about it I began realising that there was more to the memory than just an 'innocent' hour... It has taken over a year to talk about it, and because the crucial bit in the middle is still not clear I cannot accept that anything happened without proof. I made up 2 scenarios to fill in that blank; 1 innocent, 1 not. I now have flashbacks of the not-so-innocent scenario but until I have proof that it is the right one I will not admit that anything happened for sure...

It is a hard place to be, and I wish you all the best in this journey.