It takes Time to Forgive someone. Give it Time. I am REALLY HAPPY he seems to have reformed. Of course only Time will tell whether that's true or not. Be careful and keep an eye on him. If he does this again, I don't think you'll have any doubts about what to do next. Keep going to your Counsellor - hopefully he will be able to help you, with Time of course. Wishing you BOTH the best of Luck! I am SURE Time will heal ALL of your Scars. Just try to do your best and to Live your Life. Forgiveness will come when you feel like it at the most appropriate Time. I am sure things will improve if he improves too - of course it will take Time and Effort but it IS possible! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @thought_pool, your Family, your Friends, your Boyfriend and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!