Hi @WantPeaceofMind.

I fully hear what you're asking and just wanted to say, yes. In regards to my own issues, (which are very similar to yours actually) I am constantly thinking in the ways you described. I am always worried I won't improve. I've gotten worse many times before [yay!] then climbed out of that dark hole, but only back up to the level of still being unwell...

Life is one big head game really, WantPeaceofMind, a puzzle, and spiritual things, nature & solitude, are my only sanctuaries now.

Wishing you some inner peace today.