I can't relate to the psychotic episodes you've experienced. But anxiety is certainly something I'm familiar with. You mentioned worrying about your elderly parents. I am an elderly person. And it's not unusual for my anxiety to be provoked by technical glitches. (I also avoid any kind of crowd.) Anyway... I hope you will be able to find your way through your present difficulties. The fact that you've made it through 2 new years since then is a good sign. Best wishes...