At a young age, my mom at a miscarriage and I could have lost her.
I moved at age 7, and lost friends.
I was bullied and was constantly reminded that I was nothing and I lost more friends because of the bullying
I had a fire at my middle school. The building was not burnt very much but it was enough that there was a smell of smoke. I panicked the next day.
There was a bomb threat at my school, and every fire drill my friends said it was a bomb threat.
I lost my grandparents.
I had anxiety attacks after the passing of my grandpa. Those attacks went away but the damage was done, and I was suspended twice for a medical condition. I finally got my degree but it took 18 months from the time that I finished the course work.
I have seen two house fires, in my neighborhood.

I have seen loss, and I fell lost. While typing this up, I didn't cry. or experience any emotions, besides anger. I am not in touch with my emotions.

Recently 5 days ago, I got a look inside my "mental castle" and ever since I have not had many reactions to the experience of understanding what was inside the castle.

I have been working on an assignment to set goals in being more connected spiritually, and have been rather stuck. I keep going around the issues but I feel fear. Fear that I won't make much progress and be kicked out of school. (I'm in a Grad school counseling program). I feel stuck. I'm not progressing as I want. It's bringing up lots of fear. Can I become a counselor will I have to grieve that too?

How have you gotten past your grief? What skills did you use to move on? I know it's not very simple, or is it simple. I'm so scared to reach out to a mentor and say, I feel lost! Can I really speak from the heart?

Do I have a heart?

IF you were in my shoes, what would you do?