Went to bed at 7ish. Got up after an hour of nothing remotely resembling sleep and cleaned. Got caught up on emails and stuff. Lay back down at around 11 and then finally slept 'till 3. That is very good for me right now. This is just my reality now and I am trying to accept it. I find that not accepting reality is a ticket to stress.

Just checked the radar and it looks like there is a crease in the rain for a little bit. I'm gonna get my gear on and try to get out in in for 90 minutes or so.

Despite my shocking sleep deficit, I do not seem to be really psychotic or manic at the moment. Watching this very closely. I have spent many, many Christmas dinners in the hospital. Don't want to do that again.

Sending support, calm, and safe hugs to everyone. It's a tough time of year. Hang in there!!