“I accept this disrespect from him.”
^This is the whole essence of your issue.

You have a very good understanding of what is going on and what makes this relationship toxic.

Do you see a therapist? You’ll surely focus on why you don’t immediately end this relationship. Your self esteem is low. Building self esteem will teach you to say no to him, stop calling and texting him, don’t see him anymore. Learn to never accept less than respect and fairness in a relationship.

Not all men will treat you like this. Because of your low self esteem, you are a magnet for the ones that do.