i feel like that over the smallest thing charlotte... some bc its change, some bc i am not "there" and so i can't envision what "there" looks like... but a lot of it honestly is bc the younger parts of me, to use your terms, are *never* going to really think at an adult level.. they are always going to want T like a child might. The trick is being able to get to a different level.. so they know even though they will still cry, and you can manage them.

i cant interact on an open level with others, with or without T... so group is a nuh uh for me.