Things have gotten completely muddled in my head and I'm seriously struggling with SI. Even though you say I am, I don't feel all that welcome as your client any more. You're going away for 9 days again. It feels like you were gone not that long ago. I'm feeling really hopeless and I just want to give up. I wish our relationship felt stable again. You're never going to do anything nice for me again, are you? I hate this feeling. I hate my life. I'm sorry I was doing therapy wrong.