I have fantasies that happen in session too.

Growing up I had fantasies about nearly every teacher I had that they could see I wasn't wanted in my family so they would want to adopt me where finally I would be loved and nurtured.

About T.. I still sometimes have the little girl fantasy that I shared here and shared with T, of me as a toddler in a white dress toddling up to where she is and laying my head in her lap and feeling so peaceful; she looks down lovingly and strokes my hair, my cheek.

What I haven't and probably couldn't share with T is so vague I don't even know what to call it. She used to wear a lot of dresses that showed a lot of cleavage. She doesn't now but maybe it's a seasonal thing. When I'm having an in-session fantasy about sitting next to her with her holding me and my head on her shoulder.. well, they would be right there, lol, and it isn't an unpleasant thought. That's the best I can put it into words.