I just got off the phone with a good friend that lives in Portland, she struggles with anxiety too. She uses weed to cope with it. Weed just makes me anxious, even pure indica. I can't have it the house anyway bc my son. It makes him psychotic. I'm so glad he has quit bugging me to buy it for him. That was always just a battle. Last time he had my card and bought oil. All without my permission. He got really paranoid, I think that scared him not to use it again. Such a relief.

I'm nervous about my appt with this new pdoc. I've written out all the things I need to discuss I hope I didn't leave anything out. I see him tomorrow at 3:40pm.

I'm taking a bath tonight after I take my meds and I have such an awesome friend that stays on the phone with me. She works late so it works for her.

I wish I knew what to do about my son. He's taking his meds, I just wish he was out living. But mental illness has really taken over. Now it's mainly paranoia and ocd. Ugh! It's hard.

Hope everyone is doing ok. Hugs to those that need them.