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Originally Posted by whatever2013
Boiling in poisonous shame over things i said and did in my hypomania this Fall. Muttering to myself what a stupid b!t(h i am, what an asshole, what an idiot. Overeating and oversleeping. Unwashed. Home is a dump. No food in the kitchen. Living on junk from the convenience store. Down a dark hole again. Thought my new regimen of less Seroquel and more Lamictal would save me from depression again but it appears not.
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I'm sorry the med adjustments didn't work. I'm also sorry you're feeling this way. Shame can be very difficult to process.
Can you focus on one small thing at a time? Tiny wins aren't as hard as a big lift, but they add up over time. You actually already started. Yesterday you were brave and honest with us. Today maybe a shower. Tomorrow a trip to the store for proper food. The next day less rumination. The day after that some light cleaning.
I agree with Christina. You're going to have to get back that horse again. You've done it before and you'll do it when you're ready. We're here for you until you are. You're still the woman with all of the amazing qualities we know and love. Don't forget that while your brain is swimming in those poisonous waters.
