I am doing okay. Had a strawberry donut and coffee this morning. Yum! Been feeling decent this week. I wonder if it has anything to do with using the light therapy or not. I also recognize I have gotten way better at recognizing when I am catastrophizing and that's helping me. I originally did not find the little CBT I did useful, but in the long run, working on it on my own it does seem helpful. Catastrophizing is a big cognitive distortion of mine.
I have to get up the courage to call my psychiatrist today. I have decided I am somehow distorting that situation in my mind, too, where I think they don't want me to bother them or that I don't really need to since I am "okay". I am really a very stubborn person and always have been.
Anyways, got to get to work. I am working from home today. Sending compassion!