I haven't slept. I'm sooo worried about my son. The voices are saying bad things to him. He's asking my permission to do everything. He feels hopeless. His psychatrist just wants him taking 10 mgs of Zyprexa. He's gaining weight and it's not helping. I'm a mess, I didn't bathe and I see this new psychiatrist today. I'm so worried about what will happen and I'm embarrassed to go in so gross. But I can't cancel. I need his help. I'm so scared.