It’s possible that the Buspar will help! It has helped me significantly. As far as what one can learn from anxiety... it’s helped me to connect in deep beautiful ways with other people who suffer with anxiety. And this may be odd, but it’s opened me up to a spiritual journey and a completely new mindset of the world. I suffered for 2.5yr with severe anxiety... and it wasn’t until recently that I feel like I’m finding my answer. Truly accepting the anxiety has made a huge difference, as I kept trying to fight it & “beat” it, and that just made the anxiety worse. I highly recommend the book “DARE” by Barry McDonaugh... it has completely changed my relationship with the anxiety. Sending hugs your way- I hope you find your answers soon! <3