wants and Not, I too like the star fish example. I do get angry when the system works for it's self and not the "client". I am no rocket scientist and it seems like if I can see something and know a correct action others should too. I have to care for myself. I have to know what you all are saying that every step matters. Especially when done with love. I have to say that I have a tremendous sense of relief today since this man's death as though a worry is lifted, me there ready with another cork to try to stop the leak, I am greatful for the opportunity to share in peoples lives and deaths. It is a gift and I accept it with holiness. I really have a hard time when others don't seem to give a royal pooh to go out of their way and do the right thing. I was speaking with the widow today and I know that I helped her and I know she is thank ful. You know what else? I thanked her. I thanked her for trusting me and letting me do whatever I could. Powerlessness stinks.