After an early morning swim I felt great. Then I had a nap. After that my Mum took me to my place to water my plants.

Things seem to be improving, but I now am slowly coming of Haloperidol due to vision side effects. Also reducing the Lorazepam as I don’t want to be dependent on high doses.

Since early last week my memory has been terrible. I constantly forget where I am in conversations. It’s like all memory of what we were talking about just disappears. So I have to keep asking people to tell me what I’m talking about. My Mum, T, and friend all commented on my poor memory.

Since yesterday I have begun reducing those meds, but only seem to be getting worse. I slur my speech sometimes too. I’m only on low doses of Seroquel. I’m getting worried. Primarily because this could be permanent, an secondly because these meds help me a lot.

I told my nurse but he had no real idea. As it is Saturday night I can’t see a pdoc (mine is on holidays this week.) till at least a Monday. This is not worthy of interrupting the on call doctors week end.

It’s like someone gave me ECT without telling me. My mood is still good, but I am anxious over these things. I’ve been IP for 12 days and thought I would be going home Monday. Now with my neck procedure on Tuesday, and having to taper off of meds that were helping me, I don’t know when I will go home. I don’t even recall what I was going to say next. I’m so lost and confused.