I'm not ok with being nostalgic but it has been so difficult lately

I used to believe in something and I still do, but I have to face reality, what happened

I light a candle to find some comfort
The flame reminds me of warmer days

I know I've been luckier than other people in this life, but this thought makes me feel guilty

It's like I crossed a line and cannot find comfort in hope anymore, like I had enough possibilities

Then again rationality hits, and I find myself alone in the room feeling a failure and thinking about people who are feeling way worse than me, and I feel there are no angels
We can just try to support each others but sometimes it is not enough to fill the hole in the soul