I'm starting to forgive myself but i've been cringy almost all my life, especially as an adult
Dealing with psychosis in the last year made it even more non-sense

Once I was texting a person and went totally off topic telling a story about a quite known case of abuse that happened in America (I'm italian, lol), telling about the legal process, the final sentence/judgement and the (public) biography of a person involved
He replied to me: "Ok, I see"
I tried to say something like "Oh, sorry, I was just really interested in that case" but it was still cringy because it couldn't be linked even a bit with what he was talking about