Welcome to Psych Central, Tiny. Thanks for coming to PC to share your concern.

I'm sorry you & your husband have reached this difficult point in your relationship. I see the idea of marriage counseling has already been suggested. And that may indeed be something to consider if your spouse is open to it. (Sometimes it can be tough for men to warm to the idea.)

Here are links to a dozen articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help with figuring out your present situation as well as with putting it into some perspective.:

Burned-Out on Your Marriage or Relationship?

Is It Your Marriage or Your Depression?

How To Stop Your Marriage From Falling Apart

Loneliness within a Marriage

7 Reasons to Seek Marriage Counseling

https://psychcentral.com/blog/are-yo...ourself/?all=1

https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/sus...marriage-quiz/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/the-10-...happy-couples/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/relat...relationships/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/relat...happy-couples/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/relat...ouples-part-2/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/confl...ips-that-last/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.