Wow Brimaiski....that sounds horrible! I know you may not feel like it, but that's not the last thing of value. You are alive and physically unhurt. That is a great, great blessing. I've seen many life changed FOREVER, within minutes - stroke, accidents. Your situation is temporary. StreetCarBlanche has some excellent suggestions. Work all your options. Don't give up. Pls do reach out whenever you need.