Well, I don't know what is wrong with me. Woke up again today absolutely furious about absolutely nothing. Enraged. No issues. Got out on the bike anyway and managed to ride for 90 minutes--furious the entire time. About nothing. Weird. Finally did some breathing and calmed myself down and doing pretty well now. Not sure what's wrong with me. Took maybe 6 hours to get back to some kind of normal baseline. Mixed state coming on? Could definitely be. I am just almost never angry. I dunno.

Took a pretty significant spill on the bike yesterday right in the center of town. A very sweet woman saw the whole thing and stopped to help me. Very kind of her. Really touched me. Didn't hit my head, fortunately, but fairly banged up otherwise. It was wet and slick and I just went down on a tight corner. One of those things that happens from time to time this time of year. Still, I felt like an idiot.

I am heartbroken for those who are suffering from physical pain that is not being adequately treated. As a former prescriber, it makes me angry. I may have been a bit too generous with the narcs when I was in practice, but I chose early on in my career to basically always believe the patient when she/he told me they were hurting. I would not change a thing about all that. Sending those suffering strength and compassion. I am so sorry. I wish I still had a license--I'd be more than happy to take care of the problem...