First of all, I am SO SORRY for your Loss and for the Death of your Dog! Take ALL the time you need to Grieve! I feel like you're struggling A LOT with self-doubt and self-esteem. My advice would be to work on that. Are you already seeing a Therapist right now? I'd suggest to see one if you aren't as I feel like that would be REALLY helpful to you right now! Please do speak out to your parents about this. I am sure they DO Love you but unfortunately when we're Depressed and when we have a low opinion of ourselves. Don't let that stop you from getting help though! You deserve to get help and to Live a Good Life! Do what you can one step at the time. Take baby steps. I am sure you've got this! Let us know how things go for you! I am also here for you if you need someone to talk to or vent to, and I am sure PLENTY of others will be REALLY glad to listen to you as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Bookworm257, your Family, your Friendsa, your Parents and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK, MY DEAR, SWEET, KIND, AWESOME AND WONDERFUL FRIEND?!