I really appreciate the input and thoughts that you all have expressed. I had the "luxury" of seeing my ex being a mother to her son, from her first marriage. I did not witness any form of parental alienation whatsoever.

Some of you may not know my history, but I was told constant betrayals about my father by my abusive mother. In essence, I know and have felt the internal struggle that parental alienation can do. I saw how good of a mother my ex was with her son and that was what made me initially start to fall in love with her. She is a good mother and I know what traits to look for in a good mother, since my own was so destructive. Yet, I didn't see the warning signs of our failing marriage and now headed to becoming another divorce statistic.

I like the letter idea by bpcyclist and will use it.

To reiterate, I really appreciate the input and valuable advice people have given me here. My mind has been an absolute mess lately and my whole world has turned upside down. I don't know right from wrong and I feel like a salmon struggling to swim against the current. This has been a struggle, a very deep struggle.

--sarc