well I knew I should've turned the ringer off my phone, my mom called again and woke me up...damn damn damn...i just took my meds and more xanax but i think i'll take more....i'm shaking....i cant handle this...listening to sarah....she helps me feel calmer....real loud, has to be loud....why isnt all this extra xanax working??? i havent even eaten a thing today, shouldn't that make these meds have more of an effect than if i had? can't even think about food....waiting for tomorrow....11:00am for my t...i have so much anxiety....i cant handle this at all....maybe if i also take some sleeping pills ....or extra klonopin....yea, i think i'll do that.....my heart is about to jump out of my chest....i want to pass out....until tomorrow...why isn't it doing that for me....damn phone...i'm going now to take more xanax and klonopin....maybe that will help....god i hate feeling like this.... cat don't worry about me...i'll be ok...eventually...going to take more pills and turn up sarah now