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Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs
Wander thank you for the update. I am glad the injection worked quickly as well! I am not a doctor, but it is not my impression that it would block grief, but to be honest I don't know that it would be healthy if an injection blocked out all negative emotions. Without a flight/fight response it might be easier to process and deal with emotions and feel both positive and negative emotions in healthy ways without panic perhaps? That just seems to be how it works for me when my mind calms down, that I can see the situation with less fear and deal with it better, as opposed to being incapacitated by it. I am sorry that your dad doesn't try to understand, that must be hurtful. I am hopeful for you that the injection will make a positive difference for you and hope you'll keep us posted.
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Wander I was thinking this as well. Perhaps the injection keeps the fight or flight response at bay so that you can more accurately feel your way through these situations emotionally. Your previous state was to instantly trigger panic without allowing your rational thought to come forward alongside your emotions. Now it seems maybe blocking the panic will allow your thoughts and emotions to work together in a more effective way. I imagine that feels new and strange as you've been swimming upstream for so long. Give yourself room to learn this new version of things and be kind to yourself. This may be the breakthrough that you need to actually do the therapy work to process your past that you've been wanting to do all this time. It will potentially still be painful, but the hope would be that it would be at a more reasonable level you can better tolerate.
You are so very brave. I imagine maybe your Dad sees that and perhaps it is part of the reason he carries the knowing that you will be able to get better. I know it feels like he discounts what you go through and that is true, but maybe also focus on the fact he believes in you completely.
