We started with me telling him that it was three years yesterday that we first met and talking about the progress that I had made. I told him that I hadn't self harmed for around 615 days now which he said was fantastic. In talking I mentioned that I didn't think I would live beyond 26 if I hadn't met him.

I still cried a lot.

We talked about his break. That I could picture him with his M&S turkey.

We talked about crisis sessions.

My mood swings even during the session--> Crying to really happy.

I didn't think I could tell him this but I did at the end, which was hard because I do feel a lot of shame about this: being jealous of his family.

That I had seen his new photos with his daughter and that I did feel hurt seeing them especially the one with her arm around his neck. That he was leaving me to spend even more time with them when he already did spend a lot of time with them already.

One of the comments that he made was that my father didn't deserve me.

I said I'd confirm our next session.

Then I said that I hoped he had a nice holiday.