As of late, most of the time my anxiety is completely out of control. I know that It's partially because of the time of year and the fact that I have lost both my mother and brother in the last 17 months. I know that part of it is due to my relationship with my husband. The problem is, I am not sure what to do about it.

I can't eat, I can't sleep, and I can't stop shaking. I cannot visit a doctor without my husband or one of his contacts coming along, and if I go to the ER here, they refer me to an outpatient program that I cannot attend, as well as taking EVERYTHING, including my phone from me while still in the ER because of a psych diagnosis, even if I tell them I am NOT going to hurt myself or anyone else. I've already lost just about everyone close to me, and then I'm made to feel as though I am somehow in the wrong asking for help.

I don't know what to do.