Hi I’ve been to psychologist who said they do cbt but they never did. I’m not able to see the erp therapist my insurance doesn’t cover it seems only the rich could get help. I’m a the point where I just want to stay in bed all day instead of dealing with everything . I’ve been dealing with this since 2004 I’ve lost precious years of my life and it seems I’ll miss more since this isn’t ever gonna go away. I can’t even deal with my real feelings for a guy and trying to get over him cause the hocd hurts even more. I don’t know who I am what to do this has destroyed me. All I ever wanted was a boyfriend but it probably is never gonna happen now plus they’ll think I’m too old now. I feel I had life stolen from me and no one could understand what this like no one I talk to in my life has a clue the suffering I’ve done. I feel broken and no one is gonna help me