Doing pretty well. Made a chocolate roll cake for my friend's birthday today as part of a dinner and she was very happy. Mood is okay and not overly anxious. Doing okay at bringing myself out of ruminating cycles. My therapist says ruminating is one of my compulsions that I need to work on. That's helpful to know. However it does feel like being told the solution to my problem is not to have the problem anymore sometimes. Like, I have issues with focusing and with rumination and I basically feel like I get told I need to just work on staying focused and not ruminating, haha. I mean, it's true, and it just takes practice, but yeah, gets frustrating sometimes. Despite all that I am happy with where I am in a lot of ways. I am not sure if the fish oil/turmeric I am taking helped or light therapy or something else, but I am in a better place than last month.
Called my pdoc last Friday and haven't heard back from the person who schedules. I might call back because after the beginning of January I am considered a new patient since it'll be more than a year since I've been there and wonder if that'll take me longer to be seen.