One day after the injection and I’m still calm ... well mostly. I sense anxiety and panic but am not overwhelmed like before.

Saw my T today and he helped me with a couple of big decisions I have to make. He noticed I s as m much less reactive. My mind is also less focused on trauma, and more keen to have fun. He also agreed with the nurse who said I was strong and brave. My self-esteem has had a wonderful boost. I just find it hard to believe as I feel like a failure.

Soon I’m going to the hair dresser for a moisturiser treatment. My parents are tdd as king me put to dinner so I have somewhere to go with my fresh new hair.

Mostly I’m calm. It is actually weird feeling this calm without extra meds. I hope the effects of the injection last months. Still, I’m very cautious to start celebrating as pessimistic me keeps saying it will be over soon. I’m not used to things working out.