He knows more than a psychiatrist, but since I am assigned to that CMH center, I cannot see a psychiatrist outside it unless I go to ER or pay for a private one. It's how the public system works here.

I woke up feeling SUI, the dawn/dusk simulator lamp I bougth made me feel better I guess??? After two hours in bed with the lamp Next to my head I started feeling a bit Hyper, but I am overwhelmed at the same time. I feel like a tornado without any reason, sonthing like "I DO NOT WANT TO EXIST BUT I
KEEP DOING THINGS NON STOP AHAHAH *I laugh but I actually want to cry*".

I ate around 1200kcal 17h ago (after 24h fasting), fasting makes me feel in control of at least something. Ugh. I gonna keep an eye on this, the control issue reminds me of people with anorexia, but neither I am anorexic nor I intend to develop any kind of ED.

I am afraid of calling the CMH center again.