I called. Ugh.

I got an appointment with a psychiatrist on 30 december.

I am feeling horrible but I am full of energy.

Stop brain, stop dear brain aaaaah.

Tornado of thoughts, feelings tornado, wwoooph wooowoh

I don't want to be IP.

I am afraid of the psychiatrist. Don't want meds pushed 🙃

Isn't there an alternative method to deal with this?
I need to give the psychiatrist alternatives.

Crazy, inside and aside

"Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance."
I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison-