Been a rough couple of weeks. Almost separated from my husband. We decided to try marriage counseling again instead of me leaving. Don't know what will happen. My parents want me to leave him. I don't think I am ready to throw away 16 years just yet. Things are just difficult right now. Financially we are struggling. There are bills we are behind on. Especially our heating bill. Not good because it is cold where we live right now. We don't qualify for help. Already applied and got turned down. We supposedly make too much. My husband and I are both on SSDI, so we are on a fixed income. COLA my butt. When you have to pay for medicare premiums there goes your increase. They took our food stamps last month. We were only getting $16 a month anyways. What a slap in the face. Sorry for the long rant. Just frustrated right now. I am hoping 2020 is better for us. Not gonna be much of a Christmas this year either. No money for presents. I am glad we don't have kids. The only people I celebrate Christmas with are my folks anyway. My husband and I don't have any gift exchange between us. No private Christmas between us. My husband doesn't really care that much about Christmas anyways. Never has. If I only knew what I was getting myself into when I married I am not sure I would of. So much crap has happened over the years. But that is for another post. Anyways end of rant. Thanks for reading.