Leaving you next month to move to AZ is going to be the hardest thing ive ever done. i dont know how im going to do it and you're not helping me. i guess it doesn't bother you at all that im in pain and at this point would rather die than leave. i hate myself for being so weak and wish you would show just a modicum of interest, i know it would make me feel better but i know you just can't wait to get rid of me, ive overstayed my welcome so to speak. Why can't i tell you this in person?