I agree with you in your approach to meds. I would only advise meds if it were extreme situational or chemical depression and for short term use. Meds tend to muddy the waters and complicate. Then you you spend years trying to get off once you start the meds. Intense therapy w minimal, if any meds would be my recommendation. You have been without meds for so long. Don’t polydrug. Will the med bring about a serious improvement in your question of life? Then possibly.