Hi, I decreased my meds and went off a few (Haldol and lamictal) and was doing fine for a while. I felt great. (I actually have schizoaffective but my bipolar symptoms are usually more mania than severe depression). Then I started getting the urge to shoplift while at a makeup store. Just the samples that are out which I don’t see as really stealing and don’t even know if you get in trouble for. But last month I stole two... now I was shopping with a friend and stole another. They’re $38 lipsticks and I want so many of the colors but can’t afford to buy that many. I have been shopping more than normal but I have that a bit under control. Didn’t buy this YSL bag I really wanted. Controlled that urge so some urges are controlled. Then I have been dating this great guy but I got the urge like happens sometimes where I just start talking to other guys. So stupid I know and I know I can get caught but it’s like it’s someone else doing it. I just can’t help it. I met this guy for a drink and one turned to three and I went back to his place and one thing led to another. We used protection so I’m good with that but I feel guilty but this is my normal behavior when I get manic. The only reason I’m sleeping is because I still take the seroquel but I have to mix it with the klonopin to sleep. Seroquel isn’t enough to get me to sleep. Wake up every day before the alarm. I ran around all day on 4 hours of sleep after like 8 drinks last night but sat down at home for about a total of an hour today in between a bunch of errands and seeing friends. Just was on the go. One thing after another, including stealing the lipstick while shopping with my friend. I’m not normally like this, running around all day, due to my chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia and pain issues. I usually don’t go and go all day. I spend a lot of my time on the couch doing nothing but watching tv. I have trouble leaving the house usually due to my agoraphobia and extreme anxiety issues. But not once the mania kicks in. Then I can do anything. I feel now very upset because i never wanted to cheat but I did the same thing in the past when I was suffering from untreated bipolar. I cheated on boyfriends and sometimes stole little things. I’m so upset. I thought I could decrease my meds because i Really was sick of being on so many. I don’t want to tell anyone about this. I’m so embarrassed. Going home with strange men is dangerous and I don’t want to lose my boyfriend. What a mess. I wanted this relationship to be perfect and now it’s not and I have this terrible secret.