Thanks @christina and @fern46

Just saw my pdoc. He was very helpful and caring. As I’m very high risk tonight he has just given me 15 mg Olanzapine and 2.5 mg Lorazepam. He will check on me in 1.5 hours. If I’m still at risk he is sending me to a state hospital with a locked ward. He said he wants to do everything to avoid that but my life is most important.

The lucky part is I am utterly exhausted and don’t know if I have the strength to run away and play hide and seek with the police. I would have already run away if I had the energy.

I have more to say but am not up to it. If I go silent then you can guess I have been locked up.