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Originally Posted by I hate myself
They would most definately consider me a risk and report me, which people would find out and outcast me. I don't think anyone has ever seen a POCD situation like this before so they would most likely consider me a pedophile and I would be hunt down. But I dont want to be a pedophile, what can I do?
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I hope you read the article Bluekoi gave you the link to. I read it. And, from my perspective at least, it describes what you're struggling with completely. The article talks about Exposure and Response Therapy as being the most effective treatment for POCD. I don't know if something such as this would be an option for you. Family therapist, Kati Morton, has a video on her YouTube channel on the subject of exposure therapy. Here's a link just in case you'd like to see it:
One of the things Kati mentions, in her notes that appear below the video, is that it is imperative this type of therapy be completed by an experienced, licensed therapist who specializes in exposure therapy. I don't know if you've shared any of what you're struggling with, with your parent(s). But my thinking, at least, would be that in some way you have to reach out in real life for the help you need. I hope you will be able to find a way to do that. (I hope you continue posting here on PC as well.)
