I know you are all sick of hearing whine about this. I just really am totally paralyzed by it all. The thought of changing jobs is terrifying. I have been at the place for almost 20 years. I know nothing else. Everything changed when I took time off for the hospital. Going to the hospital ruined my life. Maybe I am as bad as they say I am. I used to be great at my job now apparently I can’t do anything right. This is so hard being that I am a perfectionist. I just want to go to bed and sleep for days.