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Old Dec 20, 2019, 06:50 PM
Bookworm257 Bookworm257 is offline
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I turning 18 in a month.

And I do not have what it takes to be an adult.

I'm good at writing, and I have a job right now, but I do not know how I will survive adulthood.

I don't know how to pay taxes, buy a home, or anything like that, but apart from that I don't think I could take care of myself.

I planned on going to a college to learn about programming and such so I could have a good career. But right now all I know is HTML, and I don't know if I'm smart enough to learn the other stuff. I suck at math (I was failing just a few weeks back), and I don't know if I can handle the pressure of college, along with having a job and trying to find a place to live as an adult.

I also think I'm kind of stupid, and I'm not sure I have the skills necessary to be who I want to be.

I don't think I will make it.

I feel useless and like a burden anyway, because my ADHD makes it so that I always inadvertently annoy others, forget things (even really important things), and I feel like I don't matter to the world around me at all.

I don't know what to do. I don't have what it takes at all.

I'm thinking I shouldn't be alive.

I don't want to live.

Thanks for listening, sorry for rambling but this site is like free therapy where I can just ramble to a bunch of non-judgemental people who will listen and understand.

Last edited by bluekoi; Dec 20, 2019 at 11:34 PM. Reason: Add triggger icon.
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