I turning 18 in a month.
And I do not have what it takes to be an adult.
I'm good at writing, and I have a job right now, but I do not know how I will survive adulthood.
I don't know how to pay taxes, buy a home, or anything like that, but apart from that I don't think I could take care of myself.
I planned on going to a college to learn about programming and such so I could have a good career. But right now all I know is HTML, and I don't know if I'm smart enough to learn the other stuff. I suck at math (I was failing just a few weeks back), and I don't know if I can handle the pressure of college, along with having a job and trying to find a place to live as an adult.
I also think I'm kind of stupid, and I'm not sure I have the skills necessary to be who I want to be.
I don't think I will make it.
I feel useless and like a burden anyway, because my ADHD makes it so that I always inadvertently annoy others, forget things (even really important things), and I feel like I don't matter to the world around me at all.
I don't know what to do. I don't have what it takes at all.
I'm thinking I shouldn't be alive.
I don't want to live.
Thanks for listening, sorry for rambling but this site is like free therapy where I can just ramble to a bunch of non-judgemental people who will listen and understand.
Last edited by bluekoi; Dec 20, 2019 at 11:34 PM.
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