Uuuugh. I am so mad at myself. I’ve been eating so much and none of it low carb. I already gained a pound in just one week. If I continue this way through Christmas and New Years I may put on the six pounds I lost. Then I will have to struggle to lose them again. I hate how I have no self control. I just felt so defeated that I wasn’t losing weight even with lower carb that I completely went opposite. I wanted to lose ten pounds (in 2.5 months) by the time my physical on Jan 2 came up. I struggled to lose just six. I’m so frustrated! Plus there are so many sweets around at Christmas. I will be making cookies, fudge, and Christmas crackle for desserts for Christmas Eve and gifts for people. It will be a major struggle to not eat too many of them.

On top of everything my stomach is hurting like crazy, probably from all the food and carbs. Doesn’t stop me from eating it though! I’m a glutton for punishment, as well as a regular glutton

And I’m on the patch but still smoking here and there. I don’t smoke much bc i could accidentally take in too much nicotine but still, I can only go two or three days smoke free.

Ok ok all done with my self pity post. I know some of you are struggling with worse, especially Christina and wild coyote. I will be ok. I just have to make it through the holidays without completely wrecking my weight loss.