So the past 2 weeks were a mess. Depression, agitation, psychosis, lack of sleep, Sui thoughts,,.. but today I woke up feeling so much better, it's close to a week since my thorazine was increased and it has kicked in thankfully. I was really scared yesterday, scared of myself and for myself, I was also worried I'd end up in the hospital.. which I've avoided for 3 years and of course don't want to have to go again, but I would of if things had continued to get worse.


It really feels amazing, my thinking is so much more clear and rational, I didn't expect to wake up to feeling so much better but I was hopeful.


Also, this afternoon I received some good news regarding moving into a new apartment. I'm so happy that I will finally be able to move to somewhere nicer and more affordable. And it's the place where the person who owns the complex works with you and your care manager, psychiatrist, and therapist to keep you on track, mentally healthy So you have a meeting like once or twice a month with him to go over how things are going for you and what your goals are, etc. Otherwise you're totally independent, it's really a nice program


Very excited for the new year