Yeah, I understand what you're saying. I mean, I often come to the conclusion that I'd be better off without meds. Lately, however, I've realized that they do help me quite a bit, as whenever I try to go off of them, I get bad symptoms almost immediately. I know that some of this could be withdrawal effects, so it's often hard to sort out, but usually I feel like a blob of nothing when I'm off of psych meds. I guess I'd really like to explore what life could be like without psych meds, because I feel like there's so much more spiritual stuff to discover out there than just maintaining my illness my whole life, you know? It's a tough decision for me to make, too, as I feel like when my doctor and therapist urge me to take my meds, I don't know what to do other than to listen to them. I don't know. It's tough.