I can remember word for word what was written in the notes the first time I asked for ''assistance'' from a ''professional''
It was very ironic since I was not ''desperate'' and was actually ''coping'' ok..... had I known what a psycho social minefield I was stepping into I would have stayed far far away...
Basically everything I said was invalidated. Admittedly I had severe anxiety but I was used to putting up with that.....

this is just some of what was written
''no confidence, perceives as problem'' …….. HUH?
….
''calls it a phobia'' ….. HUH?

ok, I cannot be bothered to type out any more of that inaccurate garbage that painted me almost as if I had ''no intelligence'' and certainly as an ''undeserving patient'' who the practititioner had Zero empathy for or undersanding of....

oh yes and

''paranoid about...''

i'm not even going to say what it was I was apparently ''paranoid about'' as it was clinically WRONG as well as extremely insulting.

I am posting for some understanding and validation that is so sadly lacking in my location irl. I am NOT posting to be told to ''move on'' or for some prescriptive, basic advice (for example re ''meds'' I do not wish to talk about ''meds'' or to be asked basic questions since again, that is all that is offered in my location irl and I find it very unhelpful. Well, to be honest, they rarely even ask me questions but that is due to ''time issues'' and I have remained ''safe'' for a long time despite severe SU ideation. There is not much they can say in 5 minutes which is all that is offered. And I have greater insight into myself than the most wonderful doctor ever could achieve in less than 5 minutes in 12 months or more...