am very fragile... right now... not sure why... most likely because of alters...gentle alters in control.....

when.. "mere" words... make physical bruises... is how I feel...

a "word here"... a "word there"... and... the effect is so powerful... that it causes physical bruises...

the bruises are there.... no one but me can see them....

they are purple... and blue... and hurt..

and.. I am tired.... knowing.. the very details... vividly.. in one's mind... makes for such unbearable pain...

I am scared to sleep again... my mind open... and... the nightmares... cannot stop the nightmares...

no place safe to sleep... no closet... no corner... no stairwell... no where... they will find me... and... I will feel the pain.... and it... is just unbearable.....

the nightmares chase.. me... there.. is no place to hide.....