Thanks Rohag, maybe there is a key for me in the answer to your question

I am probably not a “classic stereotypical person with a victim mentality”... since I have been known to fight back...... (Doncha loaave those labels .... So again I am a more tasty feed/target for some. A bit more potentially interesting than someone who completely and more easily fits some stereotypical “profile.”...For example, most have found me “pretty” to look at... so I was used by some men . Also I have never been “completely boring” whatever that means... or the bullies would likely have “moved on” before they had done so much harm.. and how to “move away” from the prolification (is that a word ) of bullies in this world... I am not sure. But certainly have some “self belief” and knowing their toxic words are nothing but LIES does help somewhat