Hey @fishjam
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Originally Posted by fishjam
I am honestly a bit scared of starting actual treatment. I have lived with depression for most of my life it seems and I don't know what my personality is like and who I am without the gloomy overtones. I honestly feel like maybe I would be okay if just the major depression was treated and I could just be dysthymic forever. I don't know if I'm just scared of change or what. I'm also scared of meds because it seems like the people I know irl who are on them for depression either get a lot of side effects or become dependent and can no longer regulate their moods without them. I'm scared of both possibilities. Does anyone have insight or reassurance about this?  |
What is it about the idea of dependence on meds that scares you? I dont mean to sound sharp but so many people get hung up on regular medication when it comes to mental illness. People judge us when we need it and we judge ourselves because we need it. SO what? No one says anything to someone taking blood pressure medication. No one cares if you need meds to help your cholesteral or stomach acid. Somehow, maybe its subliminal, society and us have convinced people that being dependent on meds for mental illness is some kind of character flaw and that we should just suck it up. That we should be ashamed that we have a disease or disorder that involves integral parts of ourselves like our emotions or way of thinking or feelings. If some needs medication then they need it.
I over feeling bad about needing medication and I have moved past all the pain I put my family through for not being med compliant. I have bipolar II in addition to other things and it is a brain chemistry problem.
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